Alexithymia.

I think everyone has different ways to show or describe how they feel. Some are express it loudly. Some are quietly, like they don't feel anything. We can't change how they will express it. It is already in their personalities.

Those who express loudly, they are probably a cheerful  person. And those who express it quietly, they are probably a shy ones. But i think when a cheerful person expresses it quietly, it maybe because they have nothing to say, speechless of what happens, and not expect it before. And when the shy ones expresses it loudly, it maybe because they are very happy like none could ever imagine how happy they are.

I think both of them are great -even the silent ones. Because they still can feel about something. While some people can not feel how they should feel about something or can not describe what they feel and some people even forget how to feel something.

I choose to not feel about anything. It is hard for me to describe what i really feel. I can't tell you if i were happy or not. Because sometimes i feel that i am not, even when i supposed to be.

These are probably the reasons why.

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